minx.

2009-10-04T17:51:00.002+08:00

Goodbye blogger, hello tumblr.
Here now.

2009-10-03T23:39:00.019+08:00

Happy Lantern Festival! Or is it Mooncake Festival. oh well. x)

I love old fashioned lanterns. :) They make me think of childhood days, scurrying around the neighbourhood excitedly with my brother, gingerly holding our little lanterns. And when we were even younger, those retarded plastic lanterns with tinny midi music. xD

And then fast forward a bit, to secondary school, where I would celebrate the occasion with friends, arranging candles and staining playgrounds with candle wax :X It was such a cool teenagey thing to do then! The cleaners must have reallyyy hated us.

Anyway, had second round of juniors main committee interview in school till evening todayy. &&& Gary has cute fishies in his happy aquarium. :DD Before going to school, I went to visit my grandma's place early in the morning with my family. We only stayed a while, but I'm very happy to have had the chance. :) I haven't been visiting them in a while, and I feel really horrid about that.

My little cousins have really grown tremendously fast since the last time I saw them! Children grow so very fast. It's like they have a stretching charm put on them.

A very stern looking Paul :D

A smiley paul! ^^

Cute little Luke!

It's hard to take a photo with him when he's so hyperactive.

Hey ho!

Grandma :)

Hmm, what sort of mischief shall I get up to next?

Hide and seek among the laundry!

The song Runaway Train by Soul Asylum always makes me feel a little like crying. It's so sad, in a way. Maybe cos of the music video too. So many people in this world are quietly lost, lost in every sense of the word.

I miss you left sock.

Imissyouimissyouimissyou.

I can't wait for you to be back in sg! :)

2009-09-30T11:59:00.000+08:00

GOBBLECHOMPDEVOUR.

Had buffet lunch at sakae with brudderrss today. Alvan's not in the above picture as he was away in the toilet being sick, poor chap! Hope you're feeling better now and get well soon.

The guys can really eat! :O The table barely had enough space for all the plates. My stomach capacity seems teeny weeny in comparison to theirs. But I think I can eat a lot one okay okay. Anyway, yihan has a happy tummy. I love buffets! Eat till you drop. CHOMP.

After lunch we went to play lan at iluma. Today is my virgin attempt at left 4 dead! OMGWTFBBQ!

But yihan playing a computer game = not a pretty sight. I am damn damn clueless at games. I had to rely on hollered commands and instructions from the guys and stumbled my way around.

&&& I had to be resucued from the zombies a lot a lot of times! I would find myself being sprayed with green gas thingy or being hauled away by a zombie or being devoured by a horde of them. Junwei saved me a lot, if not for him, I don't know will die how many times, sigh. But anyway! The visuals were not as scary as I expected. But maybe it's because I'm not the one chionging in front so seldom will get startled by the witch/hunter/tank/icannotrememberanymorenames.

I don't know! I find computer games really difficult! It's even more difficult than doing algebra, or, say, history source-based questions. xP Even the simple ones like minesweeper confound me. Omg, i'm such a l0s3RRRRxzxzxzxz. I do like pacman though. :D :D :D (i can't get past level 3. damn.)

Anywayy. The guys then left to go fishing and I went to school for dance. It was a tiring practice and I hope to be able to fall asleep easily later! ~

I miss you left sock.
Imissyouimissyouimissyou.
It feels strange not being able to ask you about your day.
But I hope it was really great...! :) :) *sends a hug across the causeway*

2009-09-29T23:06:00.007+08:00

Heysho! ~

Left sock is away in malaysia for six days with friends! They're climbing mt. kinabalu, how awesome awesome :) I wiki-ed it and the mountain is 4, 095 metres. So I calculated that it is around 746 giraffes tall. :D

I think it's really awesome to measure really tall things in giraffes rather than metres. xD Ever since our FOM Singapore Flyer project (where everyone's presentation wrote that the flyer is as tall as 30 giraffes), I have picked up this habit of calculating tall things in giraffes. It's so much easier to have an idea of how tall it is. xD You tell me 4, 095 metres I also don't know how tall! But 746 giraffes, now isn't it so much easier to have a rough idea? :D

The Eiffel Tower is around 59 giraffes tall! The Statute of Liberty is only around 8 giraffes. And mount everest is about 1, 613 giraffes. Holy crap.

Okay, enough of giraffes.

I've been having trouble sleeping these days, even when I'm all pooped out after dance. I get bored lying in bed after a while so I start to go through all my dance routines in my head. This makes falling asleep even harder. I shall think of a picturesque cottage by the sea and ten thousand little cats tonight. :)

I miss you left sock.

I miss you.

It's only the first night!

Hope you are having truckloads of fun there :) :) wa zi li liang...! ~

2009-09-27T22:09:00.009+08:00

Everyone's favourite Scottish monster. You know you love her. ;D

Yesterday was juniors' committee interview day! And and first SPDS mock competition together with juniors. It was fun! :) And gut-wrenchingly exhausting too!

As a result of dancing five days this week, it was a real agony to even raise my arms when shampooing. I feel so ache-y all over. But it's good, hopefully my muscles will grow bigger muahaha. hai, my dear body ah, if you cannot gain fats at least gain some muscle ok...! I don't want to be a twig anymore!

I had a very odd dream yesterday, it had a strange plot and capsule machines with human skulls in them and an old-fashioned well full of electric eels. hmmmm! So gothic/macabre/tim burton (get me as your muse!:D)

I like pretty words! A really pretty word is: supple.
And in the same vein:
lithe,
willowy,
lissome,
svelte,
graceful.

Isn't it strange how some words are more attractive than others? Lissome and flexible can both mean the same thing, but how different each of them sounds. I remember back in secondary school I used to collect pretty words when I'm reading and write them down in a notebook so I can use them in compositions. I wonder where that book went! damn.

What's your favourite word? :)

2009-09-24T13:50:00.010+08:00

Picture from tuesday: "Man and Dog (with sock on head)"

Leo is always so cute :) I love the way he begs for scraps at the dinner table, having perfected the art of the Imploring Gaze. It will crack the hardest of hearts, it will!

We went running on tuesdai. It was a real adventure. :D But but I am all horribleness terribleness at running. After a while I am so breathless I can no longer talk while I run. Daryl still can whistle, sing, talk about the Loch Ness Monster and ask me questions while running along casually as if his lungs are not on the brink of exploding. All I could manage was, "hrrghhhh!"

Anyway. I am determined to improve! I'm gonna make sure I up my stamina for dancing jive! Yeah. Well. Try try.

I like the Loch Ness Monster, I think it's so cute. :) I wish there's one living in the big long kang.

It's easier to do a split after running, try it try it!
Technique class yesterday had elements of contemporary dance, how awe-summ. :) Samba samba laterrrr, my arms are aching.

There's this annoying insect that keeps whizzing around my table and annoying the crap out of me. It looks really strange, nothing like the common house insects. It kinda looks like a mudskipper. With spindly legs. Urghhh.

I borrowed a biography on Margot Fonteyn, the most famous British ballerina. She's uhh-mazing. :) She is the perfect example that shows that having perfect technique may not make a great dancer and a great dancer may not have perfect technique. It is about dancing every move from your heart and making your performance something special that transcends mere physical action. Very, very inspiring!

I am running out of things to say.
Bye for now! Take care you lot. :)

This is a failed attempt but leo's face looks so funny, so du lan :

wtf? i am le almighty leo and you're trying to balance a sock on my head?!?!?! geroff me!

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Look what I found!

LOLOLOLOLOL.

2009-09-21T22:18:00.021+08:00

A normal, ordinary suburb.

A normal, ordinary husband,
his normal, ordinary wife.

He farts three times in succession as they curl up and watch tv together, confident that she wouldn't recoil in disgust and proceed to run off with a hot surfer dude with a 12 pack. She wafts around the house with a lurid green face mask on, confident that he wouldn't mistake her for an invading martian and proceed to take off with Ms-Pretty-Tits from work.

He doesn't believe in the whole roses-and-fireworks shindig anymore. He cooks her a truly awful meal for her birthday, trashing the kitchen in process. She yells at him and calls him a boring unromantic arsehole, but smiles to herself as she clears the plates. He offers to do the washing up and they end up having a soap sud war.

He leaves his wet underwear on the toilet floor every time. She hollers at him every single time, calls him an uncivilised boorish prig, and picks them up every single time. Her long wet hair clogs up the bath tub plug every time. He hollers at her every single time, calls her a troublesome longhaired hag, and sets to work to unblock it every single time.

She agrees vehemently and rolls her eyes dutifully with all her female colleagues as they discuss their lacklustre post-marriage sex lives. She rushes home after work to ambush him in a ripped leather outfit. He complains to his colleagues about having to rush home to a bland, homecooked dinner. He leaves work furtively 5 minutes early.

He amuses himself in the bath, pumping out a sample from each of her millions of lotions and soaps and proceeds to blow fragrant bubbles with his armpit. She wonders why her toiletries are running out so fast. He perfects his expression of polite bewilderment.

She forgets to bring her razor with her in the bath and furtively uses his on her legs. He wonders why he is never getting a close shave these days; Gillette never used to fail him. She perfects her expression of polite bewilderment.

He steals her side of the duvet every night as he snores his way across the bed. She is awoken into irritation and kicks him awake. He scowls at her with all the anger he can muster, and proceeds to tackle her and pin her to the floor. They roll on the floor in a furious tussle, keeping each other warmer than the duvet ever could.

She accidentally breaks his favourite mug and tells him it must have been a burglar who did it in the dead of the night. He accidentally burns a hole in her favourite skirt and tells her a bunch of visiting aliens stopping by earth fired their vapourising ray gun at it while he was ironing.

She gives him a cross look as he sneaks in a third box of Koko Krunch cereal into their groceries trolley. When he's not looking, she dumps in boxes of Kinder Surprise. He gallantly unloads her boxes of tampons at the checkout counter, giving the cashier a carefully cultivated look that implies he has never seen such things in his life.

She has a big fight with him as he attempts to change the channel when she is watching desperate housewives. He changes to the football channel and flushes the batteries of the remote down the toilet. She howls in anger and tackles him in the stomach. He pretends to be mortally wounded and collapses on the couch to watch his football. He conks out precisely at the 90th minute. She brings a blanket to cover him up and snuggles up with him for the night.

She pretends nothing is wrong when she starts experiencing sharp consistent pains in her side. He keeps the worry out of his eyes and complains loudly that women are troublesome.

She begs her doctor not to break the news to him until she is ready to. He begs her doctor not to let her know that he already knows it until he is ready to.

He holds her in his arms every night and wishes he could stroke her hair for the rest of his life. She buries her face in his neck every night so he wouldn't see her tears.

She hangs her head and fidgets as the doctor briefs them both on her condition. He is outraged by the fact that there is no existing cure and attempts to assault the doctor.

He shows her countless internet articles about breakthroughs in medical advancements. She pretends to be convinced by them.

He tells her he is not scared. She tells him she is not scared.

He tells her that she is the best thing that has ever happened in his life. She thwacks his chest and tells him not to say things as if she is dying.

She pretends that losing all her hair was no big deal and that she did not care for beauty. He tells her that she is beautiful, and meant it.

He still refuses to buy her flowers but instead attempted to bake cookies that tasted like sun warmed mud. She laughed and told him they were delicious, and meant it.

He holds her hand every night before she can drift off to sleep. She pretends to fall asleep within ten minutes so he can cease his bedside vigil and get some rest.

He does not tell her that he loves her. She does not tell him that she loves him. Some things lose their magic when put into mere mortal words.

At her funeral, he buys her flowers for the first time in his life. It does not matter now, that she is allergic to pollen.

He pretends his heart has not died and his life had not been emptied of hope and joy. She lies there, quieter than she has ever been in their time together.

He looks around at all the people and regrets that they have all never known her, the way he did. They have never had koko krunch cereal chucked at their heads at six in the morning, never seen her contort her face beautifully as she put on her eyeliner every morning, never seen the way she bites the corner of her tongue in intense concentration as she straightens his tie.

He smiles at the warm memories of her, memories that will soon cut like ice.

He gets on with life. He knows she is with him, always and forever.

There are great tales of love, of star-crossed lovers, of princesses and their prince charming, of damsels in distress swooning in the arms of tall brooding dark-eyed strangers.

And then there are tales of love, simple and true.

2009-09-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hello, good morning, how ya do?
What makes your rising sun so new?

Van Helsing is an awesome movie.

I saw the rerun on saturday and i've decided it is one of my all-time favourite movies. Hugh jackman ftw! Yeah. And that guy who plays dracula, he's pretty hot although he's the baddie. Well actually I think count dracula's a pretty misunderstood character, if you could see it from another viewpoint. He's only killing innocent people to survive on their blood. So technically, he is not pure evil, but merely a predator. A natural part of nature. hmm, that sounds like a circular statement.

Anyway! Hugh jackman is sizzling as a werewolf. word!
I wish his lady didn't have to die though. Yeah yeah, she's reunited with her family in the heavens. But she and van helsing have yet the chance to make hot sizzling post-battle post-killing-of-ancient-vampire-enemy-euphoric love! If I were the director, she definitely wouldn't die. :P She can be reunited with her family in heaven, you know, later la.

OK! This is a pointless post, I'm just bored. ^^

Tata world!

2009-09-16T00:19:00.006+08:00

Iscreamyouscreamweallscreamforicecream :K *yarrrghasgshdssfiwyrwie!!hysterical scream!!!11111oneoneonesatusatuyiyiyi*

Met up for lunch with daryl today. &&& we had ice cream. It is happy food! ^^ I'm real glad we got to meet today, even if it's for a while. :)

Went to school for dance in the evening. I'm so very tired! My feet hurt a little bit more than usual today, because of some "broken" corns. I don't know if that's the right word! It's like you have a corn on your feet and it... well, breaks. And a part of it juts out and the tender flesh exposed rubs against your shoe. Oh, alright this is rather repulsive. ^o^

I've discovered this brilliant author called Mil Millington. He is absolutely hilarious. His books are really funny, all lad-ish humour and sardonicism. One of his most famous novel is Things My Girlfriend and I Have Argued About. It is super roflmao.

Anyway.
I think I'm becoming a hardcore bookworm. hmm. well.
Celebrate your inner nerd!

Maybe I should cut bangs. maybe maybe maybe.

2009-09-12T23:23:00.009+08:00

fibble wibble
i'm in a big blue funk.

funk junk chunk hunk gunk clunk bunk sunk

i need some endorphins pronto.

Did you know that cats have over 100 vocal cords? They do.
(A human has two.)

And on average a human will spend up to 2 weeks kissing in his/her lifetime.
Mm. yummy.

2009-09-12T00:45:00.007+08:00

Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;

Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,

The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere

The ceremony of innocence is drowned...

- W.B. Yeats, "The Second Coming"

It has been a pretty productive friday for me. :) Helped out my bro a little with his homework in the morning and then got to spend some time with him; we went to the library and had lunch together. While going back we walked home instead of taking the bus. It was a forty-five minutes walk, but I enjoyed it as we had the chance to talk and catch up. It was really nice to reminisce about our childhood days, our old home, our old memories. I wish I had more time to spend with my brother, I really do. I guess I'm not really the best elder sister around. But I try.

Wello then I headed to school, danced for a while and we had committee meeting late into the night. When I reached home a phone call made my day, and I am happy. :) Okay, I don't know why I am breaking down my day like this in detail, but well. It's just been a rather good day.

Been dancing quite a lot these few days, and I am aching all over. But it feels nice to have my muscles out of their nua-ing state. :)

I WILL GO RUNNING AND GYMING SOON I PROMISE MYSELF CROSS MY HEART.
Stamina, you elusive entity, please come to me!

2009-09-09T00:21:00.009+08:00

L.sock's ukelelelelelelelelele :D

I has a marvellous day todai. ^^ Decent weather, snuggly day in, great company; there's nothing more I can ask for. :)))))

Ohmytian I'm having a non-stop hiccup attack now. The only cure I know is to drink hot water, but I don't want to wake up my folks with the kettle. Oh well, just have to wait it out. I think I will wake them up anyway with my vociferous hiccups. :X

The Proposal is a very good film! It is sweet and romantic without being diabetic, and it is funny in the right places. Thumbs up for sandra bullock and ryan reynolds! (His bewildered expression is really unparalleled!)

The Time Traveller's Wife, however, was quite a let-down. I was trying not to compare it to the book too much, but that proved difficult. ^^ I just find that the film lacks "heart". It kinda makes the story seem a little bland. The time restriction which caused the cutting out of some events kinda diminished the impact of the love between Henry and Clare. Somehow, it becomes very... small-scale. That seems rather ironic as one would think all the special effects and visual impact of the silver screen would lend a touch of magic to the tale. Wello I guess it's just different! Different medium, different appeal.

Holidays are awesomeness. :) I can finally have time to catch movies and indulge in some reading. I just finished this introductory book to Sigmund Freud and it is really interesting to read about his theories. Some of them make sense, but some seem to be utter nonsense to me. They are logical alright, but they are so outlandish and ridiculous I can't help but dismiss him as a little insane. He's controversial alright, but no doubt he paved the way for modern psychology.

Yey for holidays! All my beloved friends, do take care! :)

I hope she gets well soon! Angels out there, do your job pleasesies ~

2009-09-03T23:47:00.011+08:00

Baila, baila morena
bajo de esta luna llena,
under the moonlight

Went back to dance today. :) It feels lovely to stretch out those muscles after such a long time. I feel a tad rusty after weeks of study break, but it wasn't as bad as I expected. :)

I finished rereading The Time Traveller's Wife today. It touched my heart, all over again. I couldn't stop crying long after I put the book down, and I had to remind myself that it is only a fictional tale. It is really magical, how the power of words can hit the tender spots in our hearts. This particular story is blatantly unrealistic but yet because of the author's talent and way with words, she has woven a tale with characters and emotions that readers can identify with, that seem so very real. It is definitely a very unique gift. I do wish that I am able to write like that. It is really not easy.

Even with the advent of technology and alternative media, I think books will never be a dying trade. There is something special about the experience of reading a book, that nothing else can totally replicate nor replace. I certainly hope that this magic will never be lost throughout the generations to come.

i miss you too

2009-09-02T21:48:00.001+08:00

Push the button!
sexay dress was birthday gift from l. sock :)

Had an awesome post-exam date with left sock today. ^^ It feels absolutely magnificent, not having to mug for exams anymore! Freedom ftw...! We watched final destination. It is truly a horrific and revolting show, and we enjoyed it. Kinda. xD

I can't help feeling this one's a bit more fake compared to its predecessors, but maybe it's because I was much younger when I watched the first two films, so everything must have seemed a lot more terrifying then.

We also explored an interesting shop. heh. ;D

Oh and daryl's new hairstyle is tres sexay. :)

Today was a good good good day. ^^

I finally bought a copy of the Time Traveller's Wife for myself :) I read it last year but I like the story so much that I just have to read it again. Before the movie! *does an excited jig* Eric Bana's a talented actor; I think he will do Henry just fine. He's good looking too. :)

I'm going to bury my nose in the book now.

Fellow poly peeps, have a good holidays yeah!
And to my dearest JC friends, GAMBATTE KUDASAI...!

2009-09-01T01:21:00.004+08:00

Realm of the forgotten

There's a place, it is where lost things go. In this place, you'd never get lost. You'd never lose your way, you'd never lose your mind, you'd never lose the ones dear to you, you'd never lose yourself. In this place, a jumble of souls, of memories of a broken heart, of forgotten laughter, tears, happiness, sorrow.

Here is the place where virginities go, along with the coins that roll into the drain. Where childhood hopes and dreams are gathered, shining and winking, as if just polished yesterday. Where the milk teeth reside, sitting quietly in rows, awaiting collection by the elusive Miss T. Fairy. A lollipop, covered with carpet fluff, a pen with a broken nib, a clockwork toy that winds no more. A single mitten, separated from its other.

In this place full of long-lost things, perhaps it is where we can find ourselves.

2009-08-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

Coldplay has the best music videos!

2009-08-23T15:38:00.009+08:00

Come away here,
let's stop all the world now

we'll pretend to be children again
under our blanket-tent

travelling to magical lands,
just you and i.

The other day while at holland v waiting for L. sock, I met this old lady who was selling pens for two dollars each. When she first thrust the box of pens beseechingly in my direction, I did not take much notice and tried to continue on my way.

Then, she caught hold of my wrist as I passed and stopped me in my tracks.

"Miss don't go. Please help me, I have no money to buy my meals. No one else would help me," she said in Mandarin.

That was when I really stopped and locked gazes with her. I saw desperation in her eyes. It hit me with a pang that there she was, an elderly woman who have lived through all the hardship and vicissitudes of perhaps 70 or 80 years and she was asking me, a girl more than five decades younger than herself, for help. It made me wonder what sort of predicament put her in such a position, such a dire position to be in.

She must be feeling so terrible about doing this, but yet she is putting aside her pride and her dignity to beg people for help. The working adults who reside in or frequent the holland village area are usually those who are wealthier, more able in financial means, but yet nobody stopped for her. I am slightly ashamed of myself too, because if she had not grabbed my hand, I would not have stopped for her either. In the end I did buy a pen from her, and as I walked away, I wished I had the courage to ask her about her story.

It really makes me think about how sometimes we just offhandedly dismiss people trying to sell us things as con-men or scammers. It is true that some people are indeed doing that. But what if there are some who truly need our help? Even if it is only a few dollars, which we can easily go without, that will make a huge difference to them?

Maybe we should learn not to walk too fast, not to brush people off too quickly, as they try to catch our attention. Maybe one day, we will end up in that very same position, trying to stop people as they walk on importantly, off to do important things in their important lives.

2009-08-18T22:04:00.005+08:00

The brave soldier lies on the battleground, his final resting place. As he expires his last breath, he looks around in dismay at the destruction and wreckage around him. His comrades are yelling, being pushed back one by one by the savage intruders.

"No..." he says weakly, reaching out blindly, as he sees another of his brothers fall.

Bodies pile up around him, bodies of fathers, brothers, sons, husbands, lovers. The intruders leap by in exalted glee, focused intently on their sole goal of penetrating the opponent's base.

"Fall back! Fall back!" the general rears around on his mighty steed, waving the troops back.

It's been six days. Yihan's army of white blood cells have been fighting the mighty flu virus with loyalty and courage. But yet, it is a dismally losing battle.

They need back-up, and help is coming, in the form of hardy antibiotic troops, who are trained in guerilla warfare and highly skilled in taking down rogue intruders penetrating the human body's defences.

The battle ensues. Who will prevail? Yihan awaits with bated breath.

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Omigodasddfedajshdaqwertyui
It's hard not to wallow in self-pity as I mosey around at home in this sweltering weather, with a fever and really bad flu. My head hurts so bad it feels like it is going to split apart like a watermelon. My ears hurt. My nose feels more congested than the PIE during peak hours. I feel totally and utterly horrible.

My eyes feel hot when I blink. That's really strange.

I want to get better soon! =[

I close my eyes, and I see you.
I don't feel so alone anymore. wa zi li liang. :)

2009-08-16T01:22:00.008+08:00

Transitions EP Launch yay :)

Edwin and band SavingSomeone did an awesome job tonight! We really enjoyed watching them perform. ^^ Heh I uploaded the photos once I got home, because I know I won't have time to do it tomorrow.

Yay, meet up meet up with my dearest friends! ^^ And and, I haven't studied for organisationalmanagement test on monday. Oh holey mama.

I need sleep, yihan is a sick girl! :(
Oyasumi nasai ~

But you can say, baby
Baby can i hold you tonight?

2009-08-14T23:38:00.004+08:00

Random photo :) classic example of misusing the inverted peace hand sign, which actually is a vulgar gesture in britain.oops.

It was a huge relief to submit our 53-paged massmediaresearch report today! whee whee whee. Now, we have the exams exams exams at hand. What a joy. not.

I am ill for a week already! My symptoms are a lot a lot worse today. My voice is nothing more than an unattractive croak! It is rather worrying. But it's my own fault because I went to dance on wednesday and thursday when I knew that my body is busy trying to battle viruses. And there i was, stressing out the muscles and drawing on the energy needed to heal itself. Wello, I really do hope I will get better by tomorrow.

I shall go sleep now. Do take care everyone!
All the best for examinationsss if you are battling them. All together now, charge!
Goodnight world!

I do miss you, you know that?

2009-08-10T17:58:00.004+08:00

If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time.

Bored bored bored of doing featurewriting and massmediaresearch. I am halfway ill this weekend! I've got a sorethroat and my body is trying to fight the virus and prevent it from fully manifesting, I think. Result: wonky uber mega headache and feeling of floating like a transparent helium balloon.

Lady Gaga is way over-commercialised but damn her songs are catchy! I particularly like Love Game and I Like It Rough, whee!

I suddenly have a craving for macaroni macaroni macaroni.

Doing too much school work is making me a little tipsy. giggle!

Bye bye, time for dinner.

2009-08-07T11:57:00.002+08:00

Yihan is now 18 years old :)

Thank you everyone for your birthday wishes! And to dawn, gina, jiaqi, xiuwei, yinqing, yong jie for your immensely sweet and thoughtful presents. I love them all! ^^

& i am extremely touched, my brother Built me a Bear. :) *melts inside*

Most of all, thank you sock sock for everything. :) Being able to celebrate my 18th year with you by my side makes me very very very happy and thankful.

Here's to the first year anniversary of the pairing of a left and right sock! :)

Yuch bad sorethroat on my birthday! It's horrid. D:

Goodnight world :)

2009-08-04T15:35:00.014+08:00

Saturday, partner and i.

SGDF 8th Open was an eye-opening experience for us year twos, nothing more. *ohwell smile* But congrats to Jenni-and-skye and edna-and-bernard for getting much further than us! =]

There were so many competitors from other countries! It was awesome watching the Grade A dancers, as always! ^^ They are so very incredible, and I am determined to reach their standard one day. Sometimes I don't know whether to feel discouraged or inspired. Wello, positive thinking always triumphs!

Gee, these two weeks of murderous deadlines are really horrible to the max. I'm looking forward to the exams, just for the sake of getting the projects done and behind me!

Currently am holed up in the library, waiting for dance at 7pm, and trying to concentrate on doing organisationalmanagement and massmediaresearch and featurewriting! I keep getting distracted, by random flying dust bunnies, the faulty florescent lamp at the far end of the ceiling, yellow socks peeking beneath a random someone's business pants.

And red bricks lining up against whitewashed walls, a girl's red earphones, random twinges of shoulder aches.

How interesting the world seems when you've got piles of work to do!

Tuesday afternoons spent with sock always seem to zoom by relentlessly.
Tuesday afternoons alone just crawl on by like a snail on a sunwarmed pavement.

Oh, if i had

a cosmic stopwatch.

BAILA MORENA ~

2009-07-27T23:08:00.008+08:00

I love my sisters. ^^ Siyinggg hope you had a great birthday! =]]

Today was a rather long and tedious day. But, I am a happy sock. ^^
The next few days are gonna be busy busy busy weezy. Chiong ah! Chiong ah!

Shakira brings back secondary school memories. :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=582qo1wcg7Y
So nostalgic wahaha...!

2009-07-22T22:48:00.014+08:00

"I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain"

Something's wrong with blogger new post function on my firefox, yuch ~

Despite the cheery cloudie, I feel really gloomy today! I'm really frustrated at my lack of physical strength. Sometimes I feel like my body won't be able to tahan the intensive dancesport practices anymore and just break down and refuse to work. I get tired easily and I don't have the energy to give my 100% each time. I know I should go train up on my stamina, but seriously, I'm already drained enough with my current schedule now.

Now, I feel that I don't have time for my friends, family and studies. I know to my friends and family, I am really neglecting them. I'm simply not around anymore. I am also frightened that I will not be able to give my all in studies, which is not acceptable, at least to me. Dancing is my passion, and I know it takes hard work and long practices to improve. But I'm just scared that dancing about five days a week will simply make me sick of it someday. I don't want that day to come because I don't ever want to be sick of it.

Dancing used to make me really happy. Now, it just feels like a swimmer chionging the laps everyday, a runner preparing for a marathon, just endlessly pushing and pushing and pushing yourself to its limits. I know that's what a competitive sport precisely is like, but in a little corner of my heart, I question whether I really am up to it.

Okayy, the most important thing now is to do the performances well, survive the intensive training weekend and get over the competition. And more importantly, divide my time properly for DMA and MMR. And FW and... oh, I can't remember. How I wish I can split myself into many many many yihans.

Sorry for emo-ness today! I'll be alright tomorrow. =]
And I am stronger, because, I have my left sock with me. Thank you, you. =)

To a person, his problems may seem huge. But the fact is, we are all so miniscule.

2009-07-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

Random photo heh. spot the edwin :D

Today is my brudder's birthday. :] Tanjoubi omedeto xi zhe xi zhe xi zhe. We celebrated as a family today. And we watched hairy potties.

It wasn't very good, imho! There seems to be no climax. Nor ending. But I really liked the screenplay though! The castle scenes were shot beautifully. I loved how much they paid attention to detail when furnishing the various rooms and places. I can imagine how much money they spent on props alone. But still, it was not very fleshed out in terms of plot and character development!

Then again, who am I to critique right. ^^

I HADS A VAIR GOOD DAY YESTERDAY :] meep! meep! meep!
Goodnight world :)

2009-07-13T22:30:00.010+08:00

Murder of a ginger bread man! hyuk hyuk.

If I could walk upside down, the ceiling as my ground, maybe the world will look different.

Maybe everyone will look like they smiled,
those frowns now turned upside down.

Maybe a stray balloon will float my way,
its yellowness a happy cheer.

Maybe the clouds will leap like sheep,
grazing upon the heavens.

Where food never runs out,
where dreams are never shot down,
where rainbows come full circle,
where love comes first.

If I could walk upside down, the ceiling as my ground, maybe the world will be different.

2009-07-12T22:34:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday lukey and welcome to the world paul! :]

I love my grandparents so, and I really wish I have more time to spend with them, just like old times. But brother and I have grown up, no longer the little kids needing their care after school. We have moved a distance away, making it increasingly difficult to visit them.

I hope that little luke and paul can now take our place, and be the recipients of their love and care, be the ones to make them smile and laugh, be the ones to give meaning to their lives, be the ones to make new happy memories for them to share and boast about with relatives and friends.

It makes me so happy to see ahma and ahgong playing with the two little ones. My heart is filled with a tide of emotions that is frankly quite indescribable. Sometimes, there are just so many things I want to say to them. I want to thank them for taking care of brother and I when we were young, for showering us with love and patience despite anything that we did.

But as typical traditional asian families are, these things often go unsaid. We don't hug and kiss to show affection, we don't say "I love you."

But I know that they are heard, all the same.

2009-07-06T18:23:00.006+08:00

Titled: Dancer in the dark

Also done on the past languid sunday afternoon using photoshop!

I feel like such a horrible person sometimes. Came back home in a bad mood just now and got into a quarrel with my brother although it probably could have been avoided. I think I was rather mean to him. It's just horrible when you're in a funk yourself and you infect others around you. That's the least I ever want to happen. I want only sunshine, lollypops and rainbows to be infectious!

Yuch, I hate these black feelings that come over us for no reason sometimes.
Maybe it's the hormones or something. (haha! defence mechanism: projection of blame)

Anyway, the onslaught of work is starting to come! It's really scary. I hope we will survive this term! And the august competition is coming. I'm going to be dancing about five days a week.

I'm looking forward to the September holidays already! :|

But it's okay! I believe the key to getting by difficult times is to remain cheerful and kind. And to remember to look for silver liners in every cloud, for purple sheep on every highway, for checkered spoons in every drawer, for furry panties in every closet, for bunny slippers in every shoe rack, for orange socks in every cupboard, and other random nice things. :)

But I guess it's always easier said than done! Stay strong!

Alrightie, back to doing serious things.
Good bye and take care everyone!

2009-07-05T21:00:00.003+08:00

Titled: In a dream
Done using Photoshop CS 3!

I had great fun yesterday attending Voices of Love 2009 at the National Library Drama Centre Theatre! :) daryl's mum was awesome awesome awesome. ^^ I think it really takes truckloads of courage and flair to stand up there in front of so many people and sing your best! Just you and the spotlight and the bewitching music, it's quite a mesmerising effect.

I'm really glad I have the chance to hear auntie sing! She looked really elegant the whole night! There were also a good mix of singers across ages, occupations and talents performing for us, so it was a really interesting experience.

No photos yet, next time maybe! ^^

Omg. The experience of using a DSLR camera beats any other. It makes you never want to go back to a normal aim-and-shoot digital camera again! I'm going to save up for one, I promise myself. :D

School again tomorrow yuch!
Good luck everyone and let's jiaaaaaaaaaa you. :)

2009-07-04T00:39:00.004+08:00

Being silly. :D

Sian, I thought I didn't have to wake up early tomorrow but I do. So I'm not going to write much today. Have to get some beauty sleep sleep sleep! I am frustrated when things crop up last minute, but that's life I guess. We would like everything to go smoothly according to plan, but there are always hiccups. But it's okei, I'll find time for what I have to forgo.

I sure hope I don't oversleep tomorrow! Mo mo mo.

Bye world, night-o!

2009-06-27T22:57:00.007+08:00

Wee yoo weet :D

I WATCHED TRANSFORMERS 2 TODAY! AND I LOVED IT...! :D IT'S AN AWESOME AND FANTABULOUS FILM! I'M SPEAKING IN CAPS BECAUSE ONLY CAPS CAN DO IT JUSTICE...!!!!!!1111111oneoneoneonesatusatusatusatuyiyiyi.

Megan Fox is so hot! Omg. If I'm a guy, I would plaster pictures of her all over my ceiling. But I'm not a guy. So I don't do that. really really. Shia LaBeouf is so cute also also also also! They make a sizzling couple onscreen!

Robots, what robots? :D
Okay no la, I like the roboty parts too. xD My favourite is Bumblebee, so cute. :) My bro keep on harping on the Corvet Stingray Concept Mode car getting slashed into two. xD Well! Yea quite a pity; it's a very nice car indeed! The other chevvys are gorgeous too. Absolute dreamboats!

I planned to do a lot of studying today, I really did.
But.......

AHHHH TRANSFORMERS AHHHH ~ ~ ~

2009-06-21T23:50:00.015+08:00

A Soldier's Wife

One last dance,
before you go.
One last kiss,
before tomorrow.

A slow waltz
by the rusty jukebox,
to familiar tunes
of lost dreams and kisses.

One night of hope
with stars at nightfall
One last night,
before the horror and gore.

Take my hand
and kiss my tears
Gently, we'll sway
and forget our fears.

Dusty music
from a time long past
Wistful melodies
of love and lust.

A ghost of good times
filled with joy and laughter
A slippery memory
softly fades soon after.

I'd wear my best long dress
and you your smart white shirt
Ah, those fading good times
of roses in your pocket.

Let's have our dance
before you go
One last kiss,
before tomorrow.

A slow waltz
by the rusty jukebox
Holding on to each other,
we'll forget the ticking clocks.

Take this tenderness with you
to the front line of darkness
Where hollow men spar
in a cold, cold starkness.

Take my hand,
we'll have our night
Though naught can halt time
and its relentless flight.

One last dance
to forget

One last dance
to remember.

Poem by yihan
Picture source: here

2009-06-20T22:09:00.013+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4! Liu lian! ~

Liu lian scoffing outing with SPDS peoples yesterdai! :) Eat durians, eat eat eat! Now got big ulcer. :\ I bit on it accidentally 3 times while chewing today! :o The pain was... imbah...! But it's worth it for all the deliciously bitter and flavourful liu lian liu lian liu lian!

During private lesson today, I accidentally zham my partner's lip with my elbow. It bled! :O Probably gave him an ulcer too! I'm so violent. Sorry! Accidents do happen. -sheepish- :D

I bought my new dance shiuuuu today. (: Now, I'm lusting after a new costume when I've barely used my current one for several times! :X I've even thought of the ideal design already. A pouffy one that'll make my butt look fat! I really desperately need extra volume. :( Okei stop it! No point thinking about it when you have no ker-chings. :( :( :( Maybe if I look hard enough, I will find a winning Toto ticket on the ground!

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Ate at Carl's Junior today with lovely dance mates, and I managed to finish a burger and chilli cheese fries thingy by myself! I feel a tremendous sense of achievement whee! :D Everyday eat liddat sure fat one.

Fats! Fats! Fats! I need fats!
Kay, bai bai ~

2009-06-16T23:16:00.004+08:00

Pair of socks. :)

We went swimming todai. ^^ I is a lousy sock; at this age I still can't tread water or swim with my head above the water! But I don't care, it still was fun. :) Anything with left sock is fun. :) But hor, I think if I ever get caught in a flood (choy choy choy!), I won't survive for very long...!

Singapore is a sea-locked island. I think I should learn how to swim properly.
But donwan lei~ I don't like the feeling of being underwater. :( It's a horrible world beneath the surface of the water, all eerie, distorted and desolate. To me, at least!

Anyway, I had a good good good day today. :) And daryl is a very talented musician.

Yesterday, bro and I went out with our grandparents. :) We went to cow car water. Ya, Chinatown. ^^ We had dim sum for lunch and then walked around afterwards. I quite like chinatown actually; it is a quaint relic of the past. I like the old shophouses, no matter how derelict they are!

I is an old fossil, teehee.

I'm so very tired! Shall sleep early tonight.
Goodnight world, goodnight wa zi wa zi wa zi wa zi :)

2009-06-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

Phantasmagoria -noun
A shifting series of phantasms, illusions, or deceptive appearances, as in a dream or as created by the imagination.

I like this word. :) The fourth picture of Miffy lying in a pool of her own blood is very CSI-y hor. :D Okay actually is not blood, it is a strawberry pattern on my bedcovers heh. ^^

On a random note, I think the drama series Fighting Spiders is really really good! :O I think it is the best series on local tv in many years. I adore the 60s! I think it is a very quaint and heartwarming era to grow up in. Maybe on film it is more airbrushed and glammed up, but still, it is undeniable that life was much simpler then.

Our lives today are filled with frills and luxuries that supposedly makes things easier. But to me, they have only succeeded in making contentment more and more unattainable. Several decades ago, a child is more than happy to have some five-stones, marbles and perhaps a kite to entertain him. Anything can be made into a toy; tin cans, cloth scraps, twigs and branches.

And now, the latest edition of a PSP or Xbox only suffices to entertain for a few months at most.

I am filled with nostalgia for an era I have never even experienced! That is strange. ^^

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Seven moons and seven suns
Heaven waits for those who run
Down your winter and underneath your waves
When you watch and you wait
and pray for the day

And if you don't believe the sun will rise
Stand alone and greet the coming night
and in the last remaining light

The Last Remaining Light - Audioslave

2009-06-13T18:42:00.009+08:00

What is the measure of a man?

When is it exactly when a boy is no longer a boy, but becomes a man? The logical answer would be his age. But then again, this landmark age varies from place to place across cultures. In some, it is 18, in others, 21.

And in earlier tribes, the boys leave the "nest" very young, learn to hunt and fend for themselves and their families. They have "coming-of-age" rituals, tasks given by their elders to fulfill, and thus proving their manhood. In this modern day and age, we do not have these formal rituals anymore.

So, what is a man made of, that separates him from the boys? When is this defining moment, the precise point in time when a boy becomes a man? This question reminds me of the famous paradox which questions when a pile of sand becomes a heap as I continuously add on individual grains to it.

I've concluded that there is in fact no specific moment in time whereby a boy becomes a man, and a pile of sand becomes a heap. But yet, it still does not give me an answer. I can only imagine it as a gradient between the two entities, the length of transition as one becomes the other. But this grey area is neither one nor the other. What is between a pile and a heap? What is between a boy and a man? A teenager, we would conclude with flourish. But the problem still exists. When does a teenager then cease being a teenager, and becomes a man?

There always seems to be an infinity between a cause and effect, a beginning and end. For me to walk a distance of one metre, I will have to first move 1/2 of the metre, and before reaching that half, I must move 1/4 of the metre, and before that, 1/8 , 1/16 , 1/32 ..... and so on. There is an infinite number of points between the beginning and the end of a metre, so why do we ever succeed in moving from one place to another? It seems to be logically impossible.

I'm sorry, this is probably boring you! But I do love to read about such paradoxes and let my mind run wild on them. It makes me realise how in this world, things are never what they seem.

Seeing is not believing, because sight is only one of the senses we use to perceive things. Besides, we live in a world built solely out of our individual perceptions and nothing else. It is like a drawing of the world, and our five senses are the water colours, pencils, crayons.

It is rather ironic to think of it this way. We are all living in a painting, a representation constructed in our heads, of things that will remain a perpetual mystery to mankind.

What is reality, but an illusion?

2009-06-12T13:00:00.006+08:00

Shuai ge, leaving your gummy bears in my possession ain't a good idea! ^o^

I'm so very happy! Had dance practices these two days, and I am well enough to dance...! *twirls around the room randomly with unbridled joy* Still not completely back to normal yet, but it's a start. :) It was such a horrible feeling, worrying that I would never be able to dance again!

It seems a little like paranoia now, but well, the near possibility of it was petrifying. :\ It's horrible, being unable to do the things you wanna do because of physical weakness. I've decided I will never take my health for granted again!

It's scary to think of the distant future when we will become old and feeble, and never again have the strength and virility to do the things that we love doing. We would all like to think that we would always possess the boundless energy and enthusiasm of youth, but the truth is, we would all grow old one day.

We are only young once, so seize the day!

Gosh, I sound like a social welfare advertisement or something. MCYS should so hire me to be part of their PR...! Okay, actually, I don't even know what MCYS stands for. :x

Oh, I got my SP jacket today, yay yay happiness. :) I really feel a tremendous sense of achievement. Can't wait for the one embroidered with dancesport logo one to be ready. :)

It rained today! So amazing...! A rainy day is a good day. ^o^

Okay, I have run out of things to say.
Take lots of care, everyone reading this! :)

2009-06-10T22:34:00.006+08:00

Heart shaped world. :)

I've been having weird unexplained symptoms for more than a week; nausea, dizziness, loss of balance, shaky hands and legs. It seems like the doctor can't explain it either. Initially thought it was something to do with my blood count or sugar level, but blood test results were out today - nothing very out of the ordinary.

I've been feeling scared; I hate not understanding what's happening to me. Give me an identifiable condition and I can deal with that. But to be grappling with a faceless, unexplained weakness that overcomes me makes me feel so helpless. Now I just hope that all of these will go away soon. I'm a little better but still not 100% back to normal yet. I want to faster recover, so I can dance properly again! :\

I've been resting a lot these days, I have I have.

I've missed the dancesport camp. :( And several performances starting tomorrow.
I am angry at myself for the untimely illness. But there's nothing I can do either. *sighs*

Thank you for keeping my spirits up all this while, my knitted one. :)
And also to everyone who expressed concern. :)

I will be properly alright soon, I hope. :)

The weather's been so imbah these days. I can't stand the sweltering heat...! It makes staying at home absolute hell. I used to be able to sleep with only a fan but now I have to rely on the air conditioning every night! Our bill is gonna go through the roof this month. :\

This year's summer heat seems to be more unbearable than last year's! I'm dreaming of snowflakes and winter frolics in any butt-numbingly cold country.

I wanna be a penguin please! :)

Creed is the soundtrack of my summer. :) I adore adore adore adore adore the pants off this band. It is rare for me to like every single song one band produces, and Creed proves to be special! Melee is a close second. :) :)

Listen to the song Beautiful, it is so softly haunting.

So close your eyes,
here's your surprise --

2009-05-31T22:47:00.010+08:00

Sometimes, in some types of places, with some types of people,
I feel like if I blink really really hard, I can imagine ceasing to exist. Not many people can make me feel like I am significant enough to continue existing in this confusing time/space continuum, and I'm fine with that too. These are the people that I keep close to my heart.

A crowd is really where you can take refuge in, where you can lose yourself, where if you just keep walking straight, no one can ever find you. (unless if you walk into a wall)

Sometimes I feel there's nothing in this modern world for me, a world full of people walking really fast, talking really fast and charging on and on without looking back. A world full of important things to do, important things with important consequences, of jealousy, greed and envy, of lies, deceit, politics, facades, masks, mirrors, traps, pitfalls, thorns... scary things.

But yet there is also something about life, the tender and gentle things. Quiet moments that take your breath away. To me, it is these kind of moments that are worth living for. Not loud triumphs or trumpeted victory, but silently leaping your personal hurdles, doing things simply because you think it is right and... quietly giving and receiving love.

The world gets more complicated, but the things that give you contentment and satisfaction remain simple.

2009-05-25T22:58:00.005+08:00

You are really the antidote that gets me by.

I don't know what I'll do without you!

I'm so fatigued. I think we all are.
Let's jia you till we have a lil short break that is the june holidays. :)

I don't even know if that will be a break for me, but we shall see.

2009-05-24T00:14:00.017+08:00

Toe the line.

Once you cross it, it's hard to come back. It's a quick fall in, but a long climb out. Why even start? There's really no point. Every minute of a life is precious. Some people in parts of the world will give anything for a few more years, a few more days, a few more minutes. They just want to look into the eyes of their loved ones for that little bit more, to hold their children for that little while more, that few ebbing moments that will soon slip away quietly anyway.

So why, why do some willingly want to throw parts of their lives away? It is not even a "maybe", it is not even a gamble. Life is not so kind. We would all like to think that we would be the exceptions, the minorities that escape consequence, the small percentage that swerve out of the predicted outcomes.

Well. To each his own!

Though I think that we should always weigh each of our choices meticulously. Every one of them comes back to haunt us in the future, be it distant or near.

And one day, when our past decisions finally catch up to us, would we be able to say that we do not regret any one of them?

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Being able to meet you always makes me immensely happy, be it half an hour or a day. :)
Take care, love! Gambatte kudasai for your long, long day tomorrow. ^^

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Children don't stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away... away.

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Are we hiding in the shadows?

2009-05-18T21:26:00.007+08:00

So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love

2009-05-17T21:50:00.004+08:00

Rrrr. A friday evening with you is a happy one. :)

Revisiting old memories with you makes me very happy. ^^ A different perspective, a trove of shared secrets, a revelation that time passes so rapidly. Weeks after weeks glide by smoothly as if travelling on greased lightning, each being replaced swiftly by the next before you can say, "Baa baa black sheep have you any wool?"

(That was just the random-est phrase I could think of. ^^ Yes sir yes sir three bags full! One for my master! One for the dame! One for the sexy dude who lives down the lane!)

My weekend in a nutshell: Saturday was spent on dance private lesson and then Angels & Demons with the family. Sunday was spent on MMR with group! Which is not all too bad when you have such lovely, easy-to-talk-to group mates. :) I had a nice afternoon with you girls! ^o^ And with mao mao the fluffy cat who looks like garfield and nathaniel the little hamster who looks like it smiles and makes electrocution sounds. :)

Sigh it's school again tomorrow! Nyahhhh.
Good luck everyone in combating the monday blues...!

Wow, I just realised I only post on weekends now. How sad is that! School is eating me!

2009-05-10T23:47:00.003+08:00

A nirvana we find, here in our hearts.

L.sock, do you remember this place? (: I dramatised this picture just a lil, but it is our place, all the same. And there's nothing I want more than to sit by the river with you again, and stop all of time right there. I just want a break from the world right now, it's getting to me real bad.

I'm juggling too many things at once, and I'm slowly wilting beneath the weight of them all. Studies or dancesport, which is more important? The logical and obvious answer is studies, but sometimes, why does it not seem so obvious after all?

I want to run away and catch my breath first, but there's no pause button for time, the world doesn't give a shit about the people who lags behind.

Okay! I've vented my fill, no more of this emo whines now. I shall always look on the bright side, difficult as it may be sometimes. And I shall never forget the good things I have in my life right now. :)

Life is a game.
Keep your poker face on.

2009-05-02T01:54:00.002+08:00

Random photo! Cycling with some LTC group B people back in the holidays!

Holidays seem so far back now! But it's only been two weeks of school so far, sigh. I like this photo because despite having taken it using a timer, with the camera phone balanced precariously atop a bicycle seat, it still turned out pretty nice! ^^ Matthew captioned it "Facing the dead end with a SMILE!" which I found really meaningful! x)

Many a times, the destination matters not as much as the journey. I've never really realised it, but I guess our lives are merely meandering stretches of road that will eventually lead to a dead end. That sounds so depressing! Never mind, we'll pick flowers and watch clouds and skip happily as we go along! xD

Wow, I feel like every muscle in my body is aching after yesterday's dance lesson! Learning samba is incredibly difficult! But it's really fun nevertheless. :)))) I find that it puts stress on the leg muscles a lot more than the other latin dances. But it looks beautiful and very sexay! ^^

I feel so conflicted! I promised myself that I won't go do hair extensions again, but now my heart is itching itching itching! I like having long hair; it makes me feel shorter! And less thin. Probably just an optical illusion, but I need that illusion! I am so tempted gosh. Ahhh, I'm so vain wtf. :( I can't help it because I'm not born with naturally beautiful hair, oh well!

Oh and I looked at dslr cameras today. Gosh! I want a ginormous bag of money to drop down into my lap now now now!

Hmm don't we all? xD

These foolish things
remind me of you

2009-04-26T22:59:00.009+08:00

Looking out a misty car window on a rainy day, you see more than you usually do.

Rainy sunday, rainy mood, rainy thoughts. Feeling a little wonky this weekend, probably pms, maybe maybe. But I'm really happy it rained today! Yesterday was crazy crazy hot. Something's wrong with the weather these days! It's not just normal-scorching-singaporean-sunny-hot but really brain-frying-eyeballs-shrivelling-sticky-backs-and-dripping-sweat-hot!

Attended relative's wedding today, am really happy for them! Congratulations to them and all the very very best. :) The sad thing is that, I missed melvin's birthday celebration today. :( Happy birthday to you melvin!

Echoes in the hallway,
distant footsteps.
put your ear to the floor

you can hear my heart.

2009-04-25T18:12:00.008+08:00

What is love to you?

Love is... having someone to share an umbrella with on a rainy day.
Love is... long comfortable silences together.
Love is... thinking of the other before yourself.
Love is... watching movies together and not being able to concentrate.
Love is... unspoken trust.
Love is... smiling to yourself when nobody's watching.
Love is... being happy by making each other happy.
Love is... when much effort is no effort at all.
Love is... making sacrifices willingly.
Love is... laughing at the same things.
Love is... working towards common goals.
Love is... making up words together because no other word in the entire dictionary seems sufficient.

Love is... a sigh of contentment.

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First week of school was okay. Yup, a very unethusiastic okay says it all.
Dancesport's busier than ever. But we've started learning samba...!!!!!111111oneoneone. So fun so fun so fun. :)

I went running today, I'm so proud of myself! :D I'm determined to train up my stamina to do a better job at jive! Everytime do the formation routine halfway through feel like dying already! Whoever said dancesport's a soft sport should really go do three minutes of jive first then say. I think it's more tiring than running, seriously!

My brother is crazy over his Nerf.

If you have no idea what the heck that is, good, it means you are from my generation. xD Anyway they are "dart guns" (also known as blasters) that shoot bullets made from Nerf foam, according to wiki.

He's going around shooting anything and everything. He shoots his gundam poster, my dai yang tian magazine cut-outs on my cupboard, the doors, tissue boxes, my chair, ping pong balls, the ceiling, me.

"I'm so good that I bet if I shoot the sky, I will hit a bird. But my greatest conquest is you because the chances of hitting you are just so slim," says he.

Dots.

Goodness, shouldn't secondary two boy boys be playing counter strike or something. (-.-)

2009-04-21T16:29:00.005+08:00

Taken by the wonderful photographer Jenni. ;D

It was great fun to perform for the freshmen orientation programs last week...! I think the freshmen party night was the scariest because of the sheer number of audience that were present! But I'm glad it went well in the end. :) It was really a tiring week and doing stage makeup is the most tiresome thing ever, but now that school's started, I really miss the performances real lots! ^^

Hoping there would be other chances soon. :)

First few days of school are fine so far! But I'm feeling tired already. :\ This morning was a rainy one at 6am and there was nothing more I wanted than to nua under my warm blankies the entire day. D: Bye-bye holidays, I will miss you till the next time we meet again.

Photo credits to skye's camera
(and of course whoever was taking it! ^^)

2009-04-19T22:25:00.009+08:00

Celebrating Shi's birthday yesterday :)

Had Swenson's at Changi Airport, yummy. :) I'm so very glad to have spent some time with them before school reopen! It feels like ages and ages and ages since we caught up. Had a really lovely time with you girls, hope our schedule allows us to meet up again soon. And this time with full strength of six! :)

Ahhhh, having the pre-first-day-of-school blues now. I'm sure everyone else is feeling the same. =| Never mind, we're all in this together. :)

I'm a little stressed up over dancesport things. I never had a knack regarding organisational skills. But I know I need to stop being a worrywart and take things a step at a time. I don't really know why, but I would get really very stressed up and highly strung if a lot of things are thrown at me at once. It's like my brain can't handle too many things at once. That's really lousy can, omg. But it's ok. I can do it i can do it.

Now that school's starting, I'm really scared I can't juggle dance with studies. But ok. No worrying, no worrying. I shall just do my best. *nods determinedly*

The sexy birthday girl! ^^
I was trying to pretend I'm short! Not successful. ):

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LOL, I love Daiso. Where else can you get such an awfully cute and totally random kitchen sponge! xDD

So cute can die omg. xD There are two more, next time show you.

My orange balloon dog dog is dying...! It is deflating away. Very sad.
Rest in peace, little woofer.

2009-04-17T23:39:00.011+08:00

What is reflection and what is reality? You can never really tell.

I've always been rather curious about the world in mirrors! Common sense tells me images we see in the mirror are just light reflecting off a smoothly diffused surface. But maybe, just maybe, there is an alternate universe inside mirrors after all.

A world laterally opposite to ours, identical in every way. A mirror being a veil in between both, and from their side, they glimpse our world through their mirrors. Now isn't that something to think about.

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A happy orange balloon doggie that brightened up my day!

No, actually, the person who gave it to me brightened up my day. :) Time spent with you never seems to be enough, L. sock. But, no matter how long or short it is, I cherish every moment of it. When I'm with you I can peel away the outer shell we all put on to shield ourselves from the harshness of this world, shed all restrictions and just be who I want to be.

Happy pill, happy pill, that's what you are. ^^ Take care you, replenish your sleep. :)

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Life gets tiring, and sometimes all we really want is a shoulder to lean on. This shoulder not only can belong to a lover, but also to a friend, a family member, a fellow commiserator. Think of all the "shoulders" you have in your lives, and give them a big hug the next time you see them, why don't you. :)

And we should all offer a shoulder whenever we can, to make the world a better place!

The Life and Times of an Orange Balloon Doggie

Fear my suction mouth! *zzzzssuuuoopp*

I like ipods. *chomp*

Take me shopping!

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And she's buying a stairway to heaven.

2009-04-16T22:40:00.005+08:00

So let's just keep on dancing...

Been having quite a lot of performances and dancesport activities these few days, so didn't have much time to update! Well here I am, exhausted and sleepy after dancing for the freshmen party just now.

Today was quite a success I must say! I thought both the cha cha and jive performances went really well. This year's turnout for the party is definitely much more than last year's. There were so many people crammed into the concourse hall! I was really very nervous. ZL and I were so determined not to make the same mistakes we did during the one we did at BE. But, we still had fun. :)

I'm really tired! And admittedly, a little burnt out. School's starting on monday, and I haven't had the chance yet to laze in and nua a day away. Or to catch up more with old friends. Or to finish reading my library books. Or to clear my wardrobe. Or to go shopping! I've not bought a single item of clothing/pair of shoes/bags this entire holiday! That's kinda shocking, now that I think of it. x)

Then again, I do find shopping a chore sometimes. Most of the time.
I wish I have Belle's magic wardrobe in Beauty and the Beast, one that replenishes itself and prepares an outfit for you everyday! Yes, I am lazy like that. :x

Something that always brings a smile to my face. thank you. :)

2009-04-08T22:51:00.011+08:00

We're all born over a slowly simmering flame,
and each day is a step closer to death.

"Forever" is not a word applicable in our book. Mountains, oceans, rocks, sand grains, soil, rivers, lakes... they can tell each other, "I'll be there for you forever." But for human beings to say that, it is simply a blatant lie. What is forever to us? We cannot live long enough to find out.

There are so many things in this world that are all so fleeting, and we are one of them. The length of a human life cycle is shorter than the time taken to form a diamond, or to renew oil supply. A period of less than a century is all we have, and some people say since life is so short, why should anything matter to us? Why is anything so important when we are going to lose it all in the end? We come to this earth with nothing, and we leave without taking anything.

But I guess that's what makes every single moment count in our lives. Every minute is something to cherish, every second a countdown to eternal silence. And most of us only realise it when it is too late.

Yet although humans may not live forever, true love, it transcends all time and space.

Omg! Heavy topic. :) I must dispel the air of heaviness in this entry before I end. *fans the air vigorously* Ermm.

My legs are bruised after all that practicing of our jive formation countlessly...! I have ugly legs now! They are covered with mosquito bites, scars from few weeks ago's insect bite allergy and fresh bruises.

But it's okay! I'm not going to care. I have a new resolution to cut down on vanity. I don't want to slowly develop into those very high-maintenance and ultra vain girls.

Anyway! The next few weeks' gonna be real busy, what with gatherings, upcoming performances, cca drive, ds camp and what nots.

Gambatte, we can do it! d(^o^)b

Goodnight world, goodnight sock. :)

2009-04-07T23:28:00.013+08:00

Love is a puzzle, entwining lives together.

I'm filled with a myriad of emotions, swirling together tempestuously in my head, forming a blurry kaleidoscope of undefined shapes and colours running into each other. It is not an unpleasant kaleidoscope, one mostly of revelation, of hope, of giddy happiness.

Usually when you meet someone, you only know him or her from the point whereby the paths of both your lives collide.

After getting to know sock's family a little more, I realise that our past really makes up so much of us as a person. The best thing about love is getting to know a person, not just his present self, but also the past, and hope to be part of his future. :)

This is on a rather random note, but it struck me just how three-dimensional and nuanced everyone really is. You may think you know somebody, but step into the shoes of another person perceiving him, and it's a totally different story. It's only then do you realise different sides, different angles, different depths of a person's character. You realise how differently others perceive the exact same person, how some respect him, some look up to him, some know him only on the surface, some adore him and some love him deeply.

Our judgements are not always accurate, and not just judgements of others, but of ourselves too.

I've come across this dance quote that goes, "The mirror is not you. The mirror is you looking at yourself" by George Balanchine, a ballet maestro, I think.

Which is so true! What we see in the mirror is what our mind interprets it to be. You can be dancing perfectly well in the mirror, but it is others who see your flaws and your mistakes, from behind, from sideways, from far away.

There is nothing more rewarding than to be the mirror of the one you love, to uncover the strengths and qualities in him, to find the little quirks that make him who he is. And of course, also the flaws, but loving every one of them anyway.

This is one of my favourite-est songs at the moment! :)
Well, I prefer the version sung by this singer called Daryl Tan. Yup he's not that famous yet, but one day he'll be. xP

2009-04-06T17:16:00.008+08:00

Last time seeing my long hair!

Goodbye hair extensions, it's back to au naturel again. I went to remove them today and gave them a much-needed trim too. No more French Beige too! :p I got Caramel Chocolate this time and gonna ask my mum to help me with it tonight.

No more bright ah lian colour, no more fake hair,
I shall just be a good girl now! :D

I don't like hairdressers who probe too much. It's nice to make light conversation and all, but not when it comes to sensitive questions. It made me uncomfortable when he tried to find out whether I am attached by asking rather un-creatively, "So, later you going out with boyfriend ar?".

Perhaps it's just me! Some people can talk about anything under the sun with their hairdressers. I once overheard someone discussing their neighbour's sex lives! It was hilarious. x)

Ahh sock i misses you ):

Dang, I want long hair like this quick. :( Grow, grow, grow, ya hear!

2009-04-05T22:40:00.010+08:00

Attended Star Ball 09 yesterday at Singapore Expo with SPDS peepo. (:

It was great! It was great! The star performers of the night were latin ballroom world champions Stefano Di Filippo and Anna Melnikova from Italy, and standard ballroom champions Simone Segatori and Annette Sudoi from Germany.

Their performances were jaw-droppingly awesome! I was literally ":O" the whole time they danced. They are perfect! My favourite-est for the night would be the paso doble. Then again, I also loved the jive... the rumba... the cha cha cha... the samba... all of them...! And the very graceful and elegant standard ballroom dances too. It made my feet itch to pick up standard too...! ^^

Okay, enough of my rambling. Here are more pictures of the night. (:

The girls! (:

Sorry, it's blue! ): And blur.

There were intervals whereby they opened up the floor for general dancing. It was funny! We kept forgetting steps, don't know why! --

My camera died a few minutes into the performances. ): But besides, they were dancing way too fast for my laopok camera's shutter speed anyways.

Stefano and Anna.

SPDS with Stefano, Anna and Simone! Yay d(^o^)b

2009-03-31T22:25:00.004+08:00

Cookie baking day with lovelies dawn, gina and yongjie! :)

It was funny! The first batch turned out rather charred, the second one rather floppy. Third time's the charm! We also made a ginormous UFO-y one. It had a soggy center. :p

Laughter, scary stories, politics, randomness,
catching up,
cookies
till we're sick of them.

I had a real nice day with you girls. :)

Had a rehearsal for BE's event in the morning. Why why why do people never start on time, and yet ask everyone to come so early? The earlybirds are the ones to suffer. So much for getting the worm!

(Oh, but yuck, worms are bad)

And as we wind on down the road
our shadows taller than our souls.

There must be magic in your fingers
the way you work those strings.

2009-03-30T23:43:00.006+08:00

Jelly! jelly! jelly! Happy food. :)

Mr. left sock and ms. right sock made green jelly that is peach-flavoured and has strawberries and mixed-fruits-from-the-can. Yey! d(^o^)b It turned out deeelicious.

But then again, how can it not be? It's jelly! :)

I love listening to mr. left sock play the guitar and sing. :) My No. 1 idol zzzomgxzxz...! *adoring fan girl smile* I wish I can listen to him every day.

Be my personal jukebox, okay? ^^ I will bug you with "One more song! One more song!" until you are exasperated.

Quick! Am I a seal or a dog...?

Waggy tail. aww. :)

Snug as a bug in a rug!

Another jelly picture to make you hungry...!

Goodnight world,
goodnight MD. :)

2009-03-28T21:34:00.004+08:00

I give my hand to you with all my heart!
(That's my hand! But it turned out looking so fat xP)

This post was done by candlelight! :) Everything looks different in candlelight. We participated in Earth Hour and switched off our lights from 8.30 to 9.30. I think it is a rather meaningful campaign, but only if everyone participates and if it is done on a more regular basis, such as at least once every month.

Otherwise, an one-off event would simply be "wayang".

Visited the library today, borrowed some novels and a book on photography. Went to dinner afterward at Manhattan Fish Market. Food was nothing much to shout about, but it was nice eating out with my family. :)

Fish and chips makes me think of how sock would ka chiao me. It makes me smile to myself. :)
And no, I didn't have fish and chips! :D Grilled salmon ftw!

Yuck, I'm having a nasty pimple break-out.

Goodnight people, take care. :)

2009-03-27T00:33:00.004+08:00

If hearts were edible.
I'd chomp yours up. :)

Mr. left sock and ms. right sock went out to play. Over the hills and far away.
Okay, suntec only, not that far away. ^^ Had lunch at Just Acia. Which means. Free flow of ice cream! Yummy yum yum. Our idea of heaven :)

After that we caught Paul Blart: Mall Cop. It was quite an entertaining show! A fun and light-hearted one, good if you need a break from all that serious movies. ^^ I'm captivated by the lead actress' eyes! They occupy about 3/4 of her face. Okay, maybe 1/2. I want eyes like that too...! :(

Daryl almost lost his wallet! Luckily we found it in the end. Thank god thank god thank god!

After the movie, we went to sit by the river. The heavens benevolently bestowed us with lovely sea breezes! I've never felt happier. :)

I'm glad to have spent time with you today sock!

Guess whose is whose!
(A: Mine is the messy one :x)

2009-03-25T21:48:00.009+08:00

Paper hearts for me, paper hearts for you.
are you thinking of me too? :)

Went back school to practice dance today. My muscles were aching all over from all the strenuous jungle trekking, but it felt lovely to stretch them out. They are even more sore now, but I quite like the post-dance feeling, as if your bones are softer and more pliant. :p I don't know if that makes sense. ^^

I'm going to say something random!

I have realised that sometimes we rely too much on the opinion of others to make our decisions, such that in the end, we may have been better off without it. One example would be book reviews, movie reviews, gadget reviews, etc. They simply represent the view of one person, but we often take them very seriously.

Sometimes we don't watch a movie or buy a product because "8 Days says it's not nice", "the papers only gave it 2 and a half stars!" and "my friend says it sucks" and etc. Shouldn't we have a mind of our own?

But then again, I guess such opinion of others is what helps us make our choices. We just have to be careful in evaluating such opinions for ourselves and then decide what would be the best for us.

Omgosh, I think my laptop kena spyware again wtf. :( It's all internet explorer's fault. I don't even use it often, except sometimes when certain blogskins would work only in IE. Give me mozilla firefox any day!

Mr. left sock I do miss you:)

2009-03-24T22:49:00.006+08:00

SPOT Leaders of Tomorrow Camp @ Telunas

I'm back I'm back...!
The camp was fun. :) "Retrospective fun", maybe. It was really tiring going through it, but now that I'm home, it seemed really fun. ^^ And it definitely is a good experience!

I'm really so glad to be back to civilisation though. I want to hug my bed, my bolster, my pillow, my laptop, the water heater, the light switches, the taps... and of course, someone too.. :)..

During the first day, we reached the godforsaken but very very beautiful and scenic island Telunas in Indonesia after an hour's ferry ride and another hour's sampan-like boat ride. We stayed in this kelong-like place there. It's a lovely, lovely place. We then spent our first day doing typical camp activities.

The second day, we set off in the afternoon to a nearby island on boat and started our arduous and challenging two hour trek deep into the jungle. It was a long way in; we felt truly cut off from the rest of the world! We then reached our campsite and stayed overnight in the jungle. It was really a new experience for me...! We set up hammocks to sleep in and cooked our dinner and breakfast alongside a small stream. To me, it's really scary at night because it is completely pitch-dark and we had to rely on small beams of torch light to find our way around. It's really an unique feeling, to go to sleep hanging between trees and listening to the countless different insect sounds chiming all around you.

This morning just as we had cleaned up our campsite and were ready to trek back out, it started storming really heavily! It truly was difficult to maneuver our way down the waterfall area as the rocky terrains and slopes got really slippery and perilous. It was rather dangerous, but we made it through quite unscathed! So proud of us. :) It continued pouring for the rest of our trek back out but I didn't mind because it was so much more cooling and there were less mosquitoes too.

This jungle trek and overnighting is definitely the most difficult camp thing I've ever done, and I'm glad I pulled through! ^^ I made a lot of new friends too, so I guess I really don't regret going for this camp. :) Group B people rocks socks!

And it really made me appreciate just how lucky we are to live in Singapore! It felt so good to walk on such nice, straight, smooth paved roads again when we reached Singapore, and not having to trudge through mud, plunge through thorny bushes in your way, climbing up and down rocks, slipping and sliding every few steps you take, crunching over various obstacles and the like. I'll never take roads for granted ever again!

I love you roads! Ma lu, wo ai ni men! ~ ~ ~

And all the modern facilities we have! Peeing in the open in the jungle was just plain horrid! I was so scared that some insect would crawl up my butt.

We all felt immensely patriotic after the camp.
I love you Singapore! ♥

O yes, I am more tanned now. I'm not sure if that's a good thing. :\

you're my wonderwall.

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2009-03-21T13:30:00.006+08:00

I love this song. :)
Daryl sent it to me a while back and it keeps popping up in my head at random intervals. It's such a manly song la! The band have such sexay masculine voices...! Too bad they broke up.

And hor and hor! I don't know if anyone agrees, but the first time I heard it, the chorus seems to have erotic meaning. Don't you think so don't you think so!

Tag and tell me!

I hope it's not just me thinking crooked. :p

I'm going away for a leadership training camp in Indonesia tomorrow! Coming back on tuesday.
Must miss me! :D

Kay bai bai ~

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2009-03-17T23:35:00.007+08:00

Very sappy and wedding-y song, but i think it's lovely. :)

A pair of socks
一对袜子

i like the chinese word for socks. wa zi.
wa zi wa zi wa zi.

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2009-03-16T16:44:00.002+08:00

Spent my Sunday with family and my lovely aunt. We visited the IT Fair at Suntec.

Got whacked, shoved, pushed, bodyslammed, tackled, squished, stepped on, elbowed, bumped around for a few hours. But it's worth it, because aunt and mama managed to get the stuff they needed...!

Oishi-licious Rum and Raisin Crepe. ^^ Sadly, it gave me the runs afterwards, but partly also because my stomach was acting strange already before that.

HAHA this expression is classic.

Where's my food...?!?! Eat cinnamonroll first.

Rather sick today! Getting better though, I hope.
First day of rest at home since holidays started! Feels so shiok to just laze around and do nothing, whee...! ~

I don't feel like going for indonesia camp this sunday. ): ): ):

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2009-03-15T11:18:00.004+08:00

♥ SPDS rocks socks...! ~ ~ ~

With Melvin and Sharon :)

Competing couples!

The guys ~

The girls...!

~ * ~

Some pictures of partner and I ---
Credits to terence, kai and my mum ~

It's been a really good experience this time! I'm inspired to do better for the next competitions to come. Gambatte gambatte, SPDS...!

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2009-03-13T00:09:00.005+08:00

ONE MORE DAY LEFT to competition!

Jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou .... !

Go go go SPDS ! ~ ~ ~

2009-03-10T23:18:00.003+08:00

Weary is the word.
That best sums up how I'm feeling now. I feel exhaustion seeping into my bones. Been having uber-ly packed days. This week, on top of our intensive competition training schedule, we still have to perform everyday for enrolment.

I really really need a break. And what's worse, I have a camp coming up soon.
I hope my body can take it! You better not fail me now yea...!
I shall survive! I shall survive!

I wish every day were like yesterday. (: Being with you makes me truly happy. With you, I can slow down my pace and just forget the world. I ♥ you my special sock.

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2009-03-08T00:20:00.014+08:00

Round and round
goes the endless carousel

With its jarring music and painted horses
Lurid masks of gaudy porcelain,
concealing secrets within maniacal eyes

Round and round
and round and round,
twirling prettily off the ground.

Sometimes it slows
you'd never know
The city lights blur
with the shuddering motion

round and round we go

motionless in the kaleidoscope of life
trapped in an ever-moving flow.

Loop, loop
a continuous hoop,
the people seem to smile.

Jerkily soaring
and dipping again

A glorious flight
on borrowed wings,
no one stops
to see you fall

Get off, get off
let's pick another ride.

It's a vast carnival,
we'll find a place to hide.

--- Poem by yihan
Photograph from www.susanvondetten.com

2009-03-05T23:33:00.009+08:00

My bro has this cute shoe bag which he never uses. Partly because it can only fit a little boy's football boots and nothing much more. But it is the perfect size for my dance shoes! Hence, I koped it to use.

But! The most stupid thing is that it has a giant Manchester United crest on it. Like, blechhh. Everytime I carry it, it feels like a deep betrayal to my beloved Liverpool FC. So I pasted the liverpool crest over it! And added one more on the other side, for good measure. :D

Take that, Man U...! :D

I've not been watching football for ages ~
I shall start again after this competition is over and done with.
Here's to liverpool for champions league...! ^o^

My aunt from london is back! Can't wait to see her again. (:

I love stormy nights. I don't want the rain to end!

Take care all my friends and loved ones!
Those in poly, hope you are having a fabulous holiday!

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2009-03-04T22:14:00.009+08:00

No, I don't want to be a bookworm. A bookcat instead! ^o^

I'm feeling discouraged, I really am.
Emi has made me realise just how bad my technique really is. I feel so very angry at myself for always being so slow at catching on. But nevertheless, we are really thankful to her for taking time out just to coach us for the competition. I really hope that I won't let her down!

Dancing every day is tiring me out. My muscles are very sore, my toes hurt from the strain of high heels, I have blisters on my heel. And I have the hugest blue-black on my knee! It's around 4cm in diameter, a record size for me. =O But I shall hold on! A little more than a week left and we can let up on the intensive schedule. Partner, let's continue to gambatte. I hope I won't let you down too.

I really hope it is worth it. I've given up many things for dance practices. Worst of all, it's my best friend's birthday soon, and I won't be able to celebrate it with her together with the other four babes. I really miss you girls a lot, hope can get to see you soon. And I'm sorry, Yanying. I do really love you lots!

Spirits been down these days, but I'm glad I have my happy pill. (: He makes me feel so much better inside, and gives me strength to face the challenges. Because of all your support and encouragement, I don't feel so hopeless and depressed anymore. You tell me that I can do it, and so I believe it too.

I'm currently trying to rush finish sticking crystals on my dance costume! Man, this really trains your eye power and patience. So tedious, glueing those tiny buggers on one by one. I hope I don't become a glue sniffer in the process!

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Wherever You Will Go - The Calling

2009-02-28T23:23:00.007+08:00

Special Request!

Does anyone know any other blogshop that sells this top other than http://bonitochico.livejournal.com ...? My friend is urgently looking for it. Please contact me if you come across it anywhere else..!

Thankiu! (:

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Performance over! (: The carpeting is bad, so didn't do an ideal job.
Good job partner, let's jia you for competition. ^^

My toes hurt! I hate heels.

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2009-02-27T23:19:00.008+08:00

OMG HAHA! This is damn cute. I can't stop watching it. xDDD

Miffy Miffy Miffy run!
With her friends she's having fun
Snuffy Grunty Boris bear
Poppy Piggy is also there
They all together what's a day
Let's go out and play
Miffy sweet little bunny
Miffy smart little bunny
Miffy a cute little bunny
Miffy & friends !

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Oh no.
Tomorrow's our performance at SPARC's D&D and the skin allergy on my legs have not healed. I really don't know what to do! My legs look hideous now, as if someone had pinched my thighs really hard all over until there are bruises. Very gigantic bruises some more.

Hai! I wish I can photoshop away the patches. I've thought of putting foundation over them, but I'm scared that it will further aggravate them and make them even worse afterwards.

I still have the competition on 14 March to think about.

Oh no!

Please heal la, I really beg you.

Now I know how much I've always taken my unblemished legs for granted. I only realise just how precious they are when they are fugly now.

Please heal please heal please heal. I promise to pamper you everyday, put moisturiser and all that. Just revert to how you were before! ):

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Had a really tiring and intensive practice today! Our senior Emi took time to come down and grill us on our technique. We worked on our jive today, and it was really exhausting! But we're all so thankful to her. We've certainly learned a lot...! (:

Gambatte kudasai everyone in preparing for competition. ^o^

Two more weeks...! ~

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2009-02-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

Please just heal!

Disgusting red patches have gotten bigger and disgusting-er today. They seem to have worsened. I am scared.

Please just heal, and don't leave any scars. I beg of you! Latin dance favours smooth unblemished legs. I can't dance with spotty legs!

Omgosh, I am tired. 6 hours of dancing is no joke!

Thank you lisa and bernard for helping us with our chacha routine today. (:

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2009-02-24T17:11:00.003+08:00

I am immensely irritated!

I've got horrendous-looking red bumps on my legs that look like grotesque alien protrusions. They are excruciatingly itchy.

Doctor says it's just a skin allergy to insect bites or dust.

Who is this irritating insect who bit me...! Own up now...! I am very irritated by you...!

I've got a performance on saturday and now I have swollen patches on my legs!

Die, you insects! *brandishes Baygon menacingly*

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It is scientifically proven that prolonged boredom from studying for exams leads to a drastic increase in higher levels of camwhoring.

Okay, not really. hee ~

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2009-02-21T20:44:00.004+08:00

The Art of Procrastination

I am awfully hopeless at concentrating for long...~
I got bored after the fourth chapter of IPRA, and started playing around with photoshop. = x

I like the Dark Strokes effect, it's very mysterious.

Shuai ges, remember this? ^,^

Awww, angelic leo. :) This says Cuddle Me!

Okay, I'm going back to studyyyy.
I love you IPRA...! So much. *wrings notes in hands*
Good luck to everyone still having exams too...! ^o^

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2009-02-20T23:35:00.011+08:00

Konbanwa ---

IPRA's in four days, and I haven't started anything.
I've not even printed out a single lecture notes...! =x

Caught Valkyrie with sock yesterday, it was an interesting film! I've never really considered Hitler's regime from the perspective of an insider.

And then us two adventurous crusaders went on an exploration of random places, crossed treacherous plains and slayed many dragons. And fed many bloodthirsty mozzies. =o

~

Went back to school to practice dance today. It felt lovely to slip on those dancing shoes again after two weeks!

Partner and i concocted our own chacha routine, a rojak of various steps we learnt and some we made up. =x Hope it works out for competition, crossfingers! ~

My slipper: I want to join in also...!

Excruciating quest on attaining 180 degrees (still a long way more!).
Gambatte yihan! Gambatte yihan!

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2009-02-18T00:12:00.006+08:00

Friday the thirteenth,
that's what it was.

And just you and me,
and a secret hiding place.

2009-02-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

I can't get econs. I want to cry!

I'M GOING TO FAIL I'M GOING TO FAIL...!

Everytime You Go Away - Paul Young

I like this song.

Kay, bai bai ~

2009-02-15T18:58:00.008+08:00

Left, left, left right left ♥

Thank you for doing so much, to give me a beautiful valentine's day.

It seems like we have come a long way...

since the day when we first held hands,
when i first put my head on your shoulder,
when we unwittingly stumbled upon a revelation so precious.

The thought of it always makes me smile.

Now, we have many more new memories that are smile-inducing as well, and i hope we can always continue collecting such memories together.

Ti amo, my talented-singing-and-guitar-playing left sock -- :)

~ ♥ ~

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It's startling to think how time flies when you realise that people you would always remember as your cute juniors are now sec fours themselves. And boys you once knew are going to the army, becoming men. It scares me how very quickly we are growing older, growing out of our youth.

Life speeds past at such a blinding rate that we hardly have time to feel content about what we have. We've just got to remember to do it, before we can only reminisce wistfully.

~ ♥ ~

Picture I took of my brother in his formal wear. Aw, he looks rather suave and dashing doesn't he. :)

Gambatte kudasai for examinations everyone! Let's slay these last few monsters together. :)
Go go power rangers!

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2009-02-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day 2009 to everyone - ♥

2009-02-12T21:32:00.012+08:00

Built To Last - Melee

Watching this music video for Built To Last always makes me smile, no matter how foul a mood I'm in. It's so incredibly adorable. (: And the Melee boys are ~~so cute !!!!!1111oneoneoneoneone~~ extremely talented musicians!

And it is quite befitting for the upcoming valentine's day, gets you in the mushy-lovey-teddy-bears-and-heart-shaped-balloons mood.

But truth be told, I don't think v day is about teddy bears and heart shaped balloons. Rather, it is a celebration of love in all its different forms. Many people say that it is a redundant occasion, since if you love someone, you should show care and appreciation every single day. I agree too, but I also think that it can simply serve as a reminder, something that prompts you to stop and think about the many people whom you love and who loves you back just as much.

I really really miss valentine's days back in the days of secondary school when the girls would run around the new block, giving each other candies and chocolates. And at the end of the day, we would all have huge piles of sweets on our desks. Gosh, I do miss secondary school days very much, especially my five besties. I hearts you girls so! ~

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There has been much talk about conserving our planet Earth, saving the world we live in from the damages inflicted by human activities. I do very much support the conservation of nature, of course, but have you ever wondered about something?

What if the Earth is like a piece of old bread, and us human beings simply mold?
What if Earth wasn't meant to sustain us forever? Like how a piece of bread left out in the open provides temporary nourishment and life support for the mold that grows on it. After a while, the bread disappears, and the mold... they simply die out.

Perhaps the purpose of humans is simply to suck the planet dry of its nutrients, to decompose it and return it to a larger eco-system we never knew we were part of.

Or perhaps our galaxy the Milky Way is part of a single cell in the gut of a very large animal, and us tiny specks of human beings are simply like bacteria.

We always have this conception that we are at the center of our universe, that the world is created for us, that it exists for us. That Earth is supposed to house us forever. What if it isn't? What if the reason for our existence is less noble than we hoped it were?

And the world is like an apple
Whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind

--- Windmills of Your Mind by Dusty Springfield

2009-02-11T17:23:00.010+08:00

This song is eerie, lilting and sweetly haunting.
It's very nice...! ~ ~ ~

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Happy Birthday Zheng Lin...! (:
Keep dancing always!

-photo koped from terence's facebook :p-

2009-02-10T23:16:00.016+08:00

Study Date ♥

This would be titled, "Intense Concentration."

This is titled, "Taking a break from studying."

Managed to get the research for my gems essay done today. Shall start on the writing tomorrow, dreads~

Caught The Curious Case of Benjamin Button before that. I liked it, I think it was a good show. We thought it was filmed and edited very nicely too; so many things happening, but it retained a smooth flow throughout.

And the director managed to revive an otherwise cliche and predictable part about the car accident maiming the dancer's legs, by having an interesting break down of the sequence of events and pondering what would happen if just one of them had turned out differently.

Makes me think too, how perhaps fate does exist. Some things are just meant to happen, and every minute event leads up to it. The world is an endless chain of causes and effects, how daunting. If there is a God, just how does he keep track of all of them?

Or maybe, our lives simply consists of totally random coincidences, some fortunate ones, some unfortunate ones. That is randomness for you; there is a 50/50 chance of getting either results. Sometimes the odds of something bad happening is a whopping one in two possibilities, but we are conned by the relative peacefulness of normal life to think that the odds are much smaller. That's why we believe in fate.

But frankly, I don't really care if it's fate or fortunate coincidence; I'm just really thankful for all the good things in my life. (:

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My forehead hurts!
I banged it onto something stupid today. I'm getting more and more sotong lately. I really must open my eyes bigger and look out around me for silly pitfalls (both literally and figuratively). Or maybe I've been blur all my life.

长大了，不可以总是傻呼呼了。

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Pretty notebook that I didn't really need. Ah, the joys of simple retail therapy!

2009-02-09T23:49:00.003+08:00

Life truly is a strange, many-faceted affair.
Some people get by their days being happy-go-lucky and optimistic, hopping on each pebble as it comes along. They admire the marvellous scenery unfolding lusciously as they go, savouring every minute of it. Some people fret and despair over every branch and twig that's fallen in their path, worrying whether they will fall. Some people fill their hearts with love, some people with envy. Some people with compassion, some people with greed.

But in the end, we are still going in the same direction, travelling on the same journey,
reaching the same destination.

The river looks like a vast one, but no river takes an eternity to cross. Eventually it meets another bank, opposite from the one you began from. From one side to another, is death a destination rather than a pitch-dark end?

Most people yearn to have something waiting for them at the other end. But then again, we started from nothing, why should we end with something?

Seasons change, winds change, people change,
everything comes and goes,
the river keeps flowing.

2009-02-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

I adore this song! --- ♥

2009-02-06T19:05:00.007+08:00

Without shadows, light would not exist

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2009-02-04T23:19:00.007+08:00

^o^

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I'm happy to dance today, but then I'm also deeply discontented with myself.
I realise I really do need to work so much harder. The thought of three weeks without dance practices scares me! And competition is approaching~

Never mind, we can do this. (:

Now gao dim examinations first. =x
Gambatte kudasai ---

Limited edition vampire sock --- ♥
He makes me really happy.

2009-02-03T22:37:00.006+08:00

Doing editing for DVPA always leaves me feeling depressed.

Went to the mrt toilet after lesson and had an urge to cry like a little girl. I hid in there for quite long, trying to retract my tears. It's so not worth crying over dvpa. It's like being back in secondary two, tearing over mathematics results. It sounds rather trivial now, thinking back. Perhaps dvpa will be too, in the long run.

I do really wish that we can turn back the clock, to film better shots so we won't be having such a hellish time now trying to salvage everything. >_>;;

But there's always a bright side to everything, because I met someone at the bus stop and he made me laugh again. Perhaps you don't know this, but it means a lot to me, knowing you are there. (:

I really feel incredibly blessed, to have you by my side.

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Just now I kena chased by a dog!
Luckily it was on leash! Or else I would have wound up as its dinner! =O

Okay I'm exaggerating. It was only a little labrador. ^^

It was really cute! Albeit barking ferociously and running after me like a little battery-operated soft toy. Probably thought I was a tasty snack!

2009-02-01T23:52:00.006+08:00

Konbanwa~

I am in a rather happy mood now despite the Mount Fuji-high load of work waiting to be completed, as I had a fun time at jane's house just now!

I'm glad I ~~procrastinated~~ took time off to relax and went for the party, hee.

No pictures yet, so I'm just gonna post some camwhore ones from chinese new year!

Looks like black hair here. ^^
I feel like going back to black. Brown makes me look like a bimbo I think.

Pretending to gaze out of the window pensively, haha! But don't have the fewwww, hai, never mind.

Oh ya, I have a lot of pictures of my beloved cousin Luke, he's awfully kawaii ne ne ne!
Shall upload them another time!

Die my news writing die! It's very horrible. Hai, but nehmind. At least I completed it. :\ So many deadlines more to go! Gambatte kudasai everyone...! We can do this together. (:

Take lots of care everyone reading this. Goodnightnight.

I am aware this entry sounds very bimbotic! Never mind, I shall sound intellectual another day.

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There's no reason why I should miss you, but missing someone doesn't need a reason.

2009-01-26T22:47:00.022+08:00

Happy Chinese Niu Year...! ~

How was your first day of bai nian-ing..? (:
Mine was alright, had quite a lot of fun. Especially with those adorable little nieces and nephew of mine around. They are super heart-meltingly cute...! =O And it's been a long time since I spent CNY running around the house and playing catching. x)

And that little nephew is so funny. He gets really excited by fridge magnets! I can carry him and stand in front of the fridge for fifteen minutes and he will still be continually amused. ^^

I am reminded of our younger days, when the four of us cousins would be the youngest uns around. So nostalgic! But now, in some weird way, I'm also glad that I'm an aunty. ^^

Some peektures from my cam ~

I ALLEGEDLY take the longest to bath and get ready according to rest of family members, but on the contrary, I'm always the one who's first to be ready! (good time management ma, ahem xD) Hence, helped my bro to spike his hair, andden we camwhored with my lappie, hehe.

Ee, the only time he will camwhore with me willingly is if I use my mac.. ^o^

Wa seh, gangster face siol.

Kabish! ~

Stop asking me to gain weight, later I end up like this!

Hannie: I lurb eu bro! *snuggle*

Xizhe: Crazy woman.

Two bunny teeth monsters ~

Ghost.

Vainpot.

Artistic right! Got the fewwww right.
(self-justified excuse for unabashed camwhoring)

Pretty flowers. ^^

Over at Po Po's house...~

I like this picture a lot. (: Got the fewww! ~

Strange little girl who is fascinated by toy cars. ^^

Cute little niece Kiona. (don't know if I spelt that right!)

She's super hyperactive! I was trying to get a shot of her face but to no avail.

Beloved cousins. ♥

Cornered! nyahaha.

JiE mEi qing shenxzxz 1314xzxz! heartheartheart.

Boredom at work.

Haiya, cannot see the bottom of our heart.

Brothers welded to PSPs from start to end. Hai, boys will be boys.

Sisters camwhoring non-stop from start to end. Girls will be girls! ^^

And finally, it's the end of a very long post.

Happy CNY everyone! Eat more bak gua!

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2009-01-24T22:18:00.005+08:00

Hai, damn depressed la --
After hearing that, I really don't know what to say already.
We've tried our best, but still like that.

I really don't know what to do anymore.

This is the first time I feel so helpless on an assignment and I just feel like giving up. Whatever we do, it's still crap.

*takes deep breath*

Okay.

Even though it's crap, it was a good learning journey.

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Sometimes I think human beings are really complicated.
It would be a nicer place if people were simpler, kinder. Really, what's the point of playing mind games? Of putting on interchangeable facades? Hidden agendas and thick blank masks?

I have no motive in saying this, really. Just a general feeling I get these days.

Maybe I'm the one being overtly simple and gullible. Yes, I would prefer to trust everyone first before I find a reason to distrust. Isn't it really tiring and tedious to wade through the hefty process of doubts and suspicion with everything?

It would be easier to believe everything but sadly, the world is confusing tangle of truths and lies.

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2009-01-23T23:49:00.012+08:00

"I count myself in nothing else so happy
As in a soul rememb'ring my good friends."
- William Shakespeare

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Celebrated Janjan's birthday with besties today...!
I've missed them so so very much, so glad to see them after such a long time!

We went to bugis, it was a nightmare! So congested. Well, naturally. It's the eve of the eve of the eve of Chinese New Year. Went to the fu lu shou complex there to have vegetarian food. It's not bad at all! ^0^ Oishi!~

After dinner camwhored using my lappie webcam. x) We were rather boisterous, hoho. =x Probably irritated the crap out of other diners. But oh well! Here are some of the peektures. ^^ (I only post the glam ones teehee)

Laugh until so happy! :DDD

And we started to eat each other.

I love you girls! (:
Have a great great 18th birthday on Sunday, Janjan ♥!

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daryl wanna throw egg at me~
he is a big bully.

:D

2009-01-19T00:04:00.004+08:00

Two hands,
smooth,
tightly clasped.

until

Two hands,
wrinkled,
eternally entwined.

I'd like that very much.

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2009-01-17T22:33:00.003+08:00

"It's easy to wallow in the dark, to be cynical. It's a brave choice to be happy. It's taking a stand."

--- Sally Hawkins.

How true!
There are too many people in the world who thinks it's really cool to be emo and act as if the world is out to get them. It's also all too easy to stew in self-pity, to dwell in pessimism, to blame everything and everyone else when things don't go their way.

I guess the more depressing and difficult things are, the more courage it takes to be happy.

There is a silver lining in everything; we just gotta remember to find it.
I'm glad I came across this quote; it changes my perception on things!

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I can now do front-back split for about 5 seconds before curling up in pain! Although it's only one side (the other side still can't!) and I'm still very far from my goal, I'm still greatly encouraged!

My knees keep getting bruised from rubbing on the floor though! Never mind, ugly knees for increased flexibility; it's a worthy trade...! ^o^

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Saw something just now and it gave my tear ducts quite a work out...
Reminds me to treasure what I have now, cos life is indeed thus unpredictable.

Sometimes we deceptively feel so in control of our lives, but then again, perhaps everything's already written and laid out for us. Is there such a thing as destiny?

In the end, it doesn't matter too. What matters is that we have emptied our reservoirs of love while we still can. Why hold back? It is limitless.

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2009-01-16T21:47:00.004+08:00

“Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs... It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

(Corinthians 13:4-7)

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2009-01-13T22:13:00.008+08:00

Long aimless rant ~

Yucks, today was horrible. :(

I had a really really really bad day today and I'm just feeling very blah. I can't really complain to anyone, because we're all in the same sad plight of being bombarded with work and are all equally stressed up. So I'll just complain to you journal, cos you have such a good life, sitting here in that comfortable corner of yours in the world wide web all day, unchanging, immobile, at peace.

I hate it how assignments and tests are being thrown at us relentlessly; it makes my head spin. And ache too, now. There are just so many things to do and not enough hours in a day for them all.

DVPA was awful today. Nothing's going right for us. But we tried, very hard, and it sucks how everything just goes awry. I'm feeling so damn discouraged and there's nothing more we can do to change things anymore. It's too late. What else can we do but to try to smoke the rest of the way through? I really hope our group won't fail this whole thing. But sometimes, I see how mr. sng looks at us and I'm not so sure anymore.

I have to admit, I didn't worry much about my grades during the first semester of poly, but now, I do, very much, and it's scary how I just can't find the motivation to study.

Came home just now, and tried to de-stress a little by doing a bit of stretching. It made me feel even worse, sadly, because I came to the realisation that I've been trying to achieve a split for eight months already and I still can't completely do it. So f-ing lousy right!

Okei, this entry is so depressing. I really have to stop thinking like this. There are people out there in the world now worrying where their next meal's going to come from, worrying whether they have a roof to sleep under tonight, worrying whether today is going to be their last day on this earth. And here I am, worrying about such trivial things! I could be worrying about the siege of Gaza, or erm, the state of the world economy!

Well, now I'm just really worried about whether I can pass the econs test. :\

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The more things seem to change,
the more they stay the same...

don't you think it's strange?

2009-01-12T22:20:00.003+08:00

待合わせ場所 - ♥

Crowded streets all cleared away
One by one
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die

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2009-01-08T23:26:00.008+08:00

Konbanwa ♥
Today JFT and SFT (Senior Formation Team = SFT? :p) had performances during SP Open House. It went pretty well, I think! Especially during SFT's In The Mood; the crowd got pretty geared up! :)

But again, the velvety floor is hard to dance on. Only ballroom floor's the best for a ballroom dance! Ok, very duh.

After that I chionged finish removing make up and chionged to do news writing test. And then chionged to dancesport lesson. It's been a chiong-ful day, so tired.

Very the happy today! We learnt new stunt for new jive routine. It's so fun wei! I never knew jive could be this fun, yay. ^o^

I gots something growing on the inside of my eyelid and it hurts like a bitch when I blink. :(

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Okay, some random peektures of us camwhoring furiously with the huge teddy bear before we gave it to jin. :)

As you can see, we all like the xiong xiong very much.
Eugene, must take good care of her...! ^o^

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It's been hectic-ism these two weeks,
and i misses euxzxzxz.

2009-01-04T21:09:00.001+08:00

The Square Root of 3
by Dave Feinberg

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed.

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Hoho, romantic poem for geeks. So cute. :)